Believer and wanderer

Two Advent offerings for today. First, a poem by Madeleine L’Engle:

THE GLORY

Without any rhyme
Without any reason
my heart lifts to light
in this bleak season

Believer and wanderer
caught by salvation
stumbler and blunderer
into Creation

In this cold blight
where marrow is frozen
it is God’s time
my heart has chosen

In paradox and story
parable and laughter
find I the glory
here in hereafter

And on that wandering note, a wonderful line from a Rumi poem, which I’ve had the good pleasure to hear put to music and sung as a round:

Come, come, whoever you are
wanderer, worshipper
lover of leaving
ours is no caravan of despair
come, yet again, come

Pax
Heather

Widen my imagination

Last night I attended the first Advent service of the season. It was to feature my favorite liturgy, the Holden Village Evening Prayer service created by Marty Haugen. My daughter and I braved 60 mile-an-hour winds as we entered the sanctuary. The lights went out twice in short bursts as we settled in, finally zapping out for good moments before the opening verse was canted: “Jesus Christ you are the light of the world. The light no darkness can overcome.” We huddled around the candelabra and lit our song bulletins with cell phones as the wind howled and the palm fronds snapped against the stained glass windows. It was a perfect service, one that rekindled in me the spirit of the season and inspired me to want to share a few of my favorite artist’s thoughts on the blessings of Advent, of waiting in hope, of communing in love, and of the great and simple joy of the birth of Christ. (A little Daily Bread to go along with our peppermint bark, if you will).

It came to me, recently, that faith is “a certain widening of the imagination.” When Mary asked the Angel, “How shall these things be?” she was asking God to widen her imagination.

Luci Shaw, from WinterSong

All my life I have been requesting the same thing— a baptized imagination that has a wide enough faith to see the numinous in the ordinary. Without discarding reason, or analysis, I seek from my Muse, the Holy Spirit, images that will open up reality and pull me in to its center.

This is the benison (Middle English for blessing) of the sacramental view of life. May it be so this Advent and always.

Good. Clean. Fun.

I must begin this post with a confession: I’m not a shopper. I don’t keep up with fashion trends. I have two pair of adult high heels, one of which I got for my rehearsal dinner 26 years ago. If I do find myself in a gift store, I can’t summon a single name of someone who might be due something soon. Think, Heather, think I say as I rattle off the categories: birthday, baby shower, wedding. I try to picture the members of my extended family, their special dates, anniversaries. But no— that special someone will not occur to me until I’m out of the store and well down the road, at which point I’ll let out an aaarghy, defeated sigh. There is a moment of dread as I realize that I will have to go back out somewhere, get something for someone. And then, like a gardenia-scented epiphany, I remember: Soaptopia.

Soaptopia is a little store that opened in my Mar Vista neighborhood about 5 years ago. It is the only store that meets every shopping need I have in my non-shopping soul: it’s local, it’s affordable, it’s fun, it’s practical, and no one ever wants to exchange anything I get them there. I love everything about this store. Love that it’s a small business that sells good, pure, all-natural, homemade products. Love that all the crazy smells, the vanilla and the orange blossom, the peppermint and patchouli, the rose and the almond, all waft around in a crazy swirl. Love all the wacky soap names: Beauty and the Beach, Divine Dreamsicle, The Grapefruit Gatsby. Love the people who work there, who always treat your quest for the perfect soap or oil or lotion like it was a matter of global importance, and then package whatever little thing you buy in such an artful way as to make it look as if the recipient must be the most special person on your entire list. At Soaptopia, it always feels like Christmas.

Tomorrow a dear friend of my son’s in turning 21. “We’re taking her out at midnight for her first bar drink,” Graham told me as we drove home from lunch. We were almost there, inching towards Venice Blvd. And just like that, I smiled and changed lanes.

“I think I’d like to get her something.” He didn’t balk or ask to be dropped off first. He went eagerly in and immediately got caught up in the fun and the smells and the loofahs and the bristle brushes. I had gotten him an old-fashioned shaving brush and a cedar tub of shea butter-based foam for Christmas a few years back. He was thinking of getting his Dad a replacement tub for his own set this year. “I noticed he was running low,” Graham said. He’s thoughtful that way.

Fifteen minutes later we walked out with a gift box that displayed the soap and the slathering oil and a stick of natural lip balm. I paid for it all with a $20 bill and got change. If you need to buy a gift, this is the way to go.

Which bring up the issue of needing to buy gifts at all. There was great ad in the L.A. Times this morning for a group called JustGive. They’re not selling anything. They’re not asking you to buy anything. They’re simply encouraging all of us who know full well we don’t need anything at Christmas to indulge our spirit of generosity by giving gifts to charities. This is not a new idea but one that needs our support. You can find out more at redefinechristmas.org.

One final shill: the little ceramic angels from St. Andrew’s Abbey, my favorite monastery. Their online store— saintandrewsabbey.com— is the only place on earth where you can buy a personal angel for everyone on your list—from a beagle lover to a Buddhist to a bookkeeper— a small, daily reminder that whoever we are and whatever we love, God has his angels watching over us.

So there it is in a nutshell. Everything you need to know about holiday shopping. Give to charity (including monks). Or shop locally. And if you must buy, just remember, everyone needs soap.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sometimes we just need to laugh at ourselves. This video should help. It’s a classic dinner table scene from the comic satire I HEART Huckabees. I think you’ll recognize a lot of the faces.

As we gather around the table this week, let’s remember to be thankful for all the different points of view that we find there.
Pax

Don’t believe everything you hear on TV

A friend posted a wonderful article this week on what she calls the 1% media spin on Christians. If we are to believe what we hear on TV (or in the blogsphere), Christians are essentially an angry, self-righteous, narrow, finger-wagging mob that seems oddly concerned with amassing money for themselves while withholding it from the poor and the suffering. Or strangely obsessed with saving week-old embryos while clamoring for the heads of adult criminals. Those are the soundbites anyway. And boy do we eat them up.

I’m as guilty of buying into the negative press as anyone because somehow, deep down, I think I’ve always suspected that my church home, and the many larger circles of faith I’ve been drawn into over the past 17 years, are aberrations. They’d have to be. If the media is right— if what I hear on TV about what Christians really believe and how they behave is true— then my experiences are so far out of the norm as to be irrelevant; to date, I could count on half a hand the actual flesh-and-blood people I’ve encountered who fit the stereotype.

A few months back, I feared that was all going to change. I had committed to beginning my MA in Theology in what I would consider a very unlikely place: Concordia University in Irvine. In Orange County. Yes, THAT Orange County. In a red-state/blue-state world, it was seemingly as red as they came. Being an L.A. girl, with a Venice cultural bent, I was scared to death to cross over the “Orange Curtain” to learn more deeply about God. Surely there I would come finally come face to face with the ugly reality of those pinched and howling mobs. I prayed that the experience wouldn’t undermine my faith entirely, that “those people” — you know, the ones on TV who want to tell everyone what to think and how to live — wouldn’t ruin everything.

Instead I came face to face with real reality. With professors who were also pastors, who held PhDs in Philosophy and stated emphatically on Day 1 of our Ethics class, “If you believe that because of your Christian faith there is only one political party to belong to you’re mistaken.” I looked around the room, heard the voices of the students logging in online, as night after night we tackled lines of philosophical thought— Socrates, Plato, Aristotle, Kant, Mill, Engelhardt— and always the question that was asked was this, “Can you support your position without any reference to scripture or even an assumption of a worldview that includes God.”

Over the past few months I have had the good fortune to learn from fellow students who amaze me by their very presence: an Ethiopian lay pastor who longed to study the teachings of Martin Luther and who shares with us abundantly from his experiences dealing with global poverty and corrupt government systems; a young Chinese woman who records every lecture so she can relisten at home, slowly decoding the words in the language that is still so new to her, her insights like perfect drops of rain; a local father of four with a PhD in mechanical engineering who’s committed his life to groundbreaking research in fuel cell technology and alternative energy sources; when our class is over, he and others stay on into the night to study Greek. And so many good and wise men whose hearts have called them to a life of service who hunger to find words permeable enough to bring love to everyone in a world that few would deny is more than a little bit broken.

The discussions are never narrow. There is a sincere desire on the part of almost every person in the class to grow beyond their own understanding. When someone does express what appears to be a limited view— a soundbite view— they are quickly and gently guided towards a broader one.

The fact that this surprises me is proof that I have been as guilty as the non-believing world in buying into what the media— and a sliver of followers— wants us to see as the face of Christianity. Proof that I have forgotten about the truth of The Silent Majority. We are just people, lots and lots of stunningly different types of people, who have in common the simple fact that we’ve been touched by the love of God who became real to us in some ineffable way through the life of Jesus Christ. Now we try to use His life and teachings to make sense of the world. Most of that work is done without fanfare. Much of it involves quiet acts of service— taking time to listen to a neighbor, giving your all to a project even when no one’s looking, being a voice of peace in a chaotic environment. Trying to bring a bit more grace to the world with whatever gifts God’s given us.

Quiet stuff.

Let’s try to remember that the next time we are presented with a tinny, soundbite version of what Christianity looks like in America in the year 2011.